benevolent creature

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 22:08:32 GMT

he loves me

he loves me not

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:20:10 GMT

*my butt is big
    and round like the letter C
    and ten thousand lunges
      have made it rounder
           but not smaller
              and thats just fine.
                  it's a space heater
                    for my side of the bed
                       it's my ambassador
                       to those who walk behind me
                       it's a border collie
                     that herds skinny women
                  away from the best deals
                at clothing sales.
             my butt is big
           and thats just fine
     and those who might scorn it
    are invited to kiss it*

for us little people

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 18:54:41 GMT

i may not run my own company
i am not my own boss
im not in a huge company and known for all my talents

im a little person
that answers the phones
makes your appoitments
brings you food
cleans your houses
files your paperwork
stands behind a cash register
makes sure stock is done correctly
drives around in safari trucks

i might just be a 9 digit number to the government
but if i werent here
if we werent here
all those other lives...
wouldnt be impossible

feel it
love it

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 16:40:03 GMT

they say old habits die hard
i'd say they're better off dead

a year gone past

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 01:05:27 GMT

its crazy when you sit and think about a whole year thats gone by
the good things, the bad things
the people i loved, gone
some that stayed

its crazy how a whole year can pass and you never forget the memories and friends
the good ones
always hold on to the good ones
i always do

but no sense on wondering, or keeping thoughts alive, they will always be there
some, some will never fade

at least i can say i tried, and i did
*shrug*

miss you

and on to another year...cheryl as usual
catch me if you can, im lucky to get a WHOLE day off...its crazy
but thats what im good for
*grin*
but saturday is a whole day. *finally*
sleeeeping in thank god

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 23:36:29 GMT

SOOO....keeping in mind im a delivery driver at night in killearn, i keep my eye on prices...

for all us poor college students....

stay on north monroe...specifically CIRCLE K

on N.Monroe and 7th, its $2.58-2.78
now theres a line, but is it worth it?

high and tharpe, $2.68-2.98

i hope this helps

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 17:39:02 GMT

*It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes one to have the other
It takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes some silence to make a sound
It takes a loss before you found it
It takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care*

Smokers Unite

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 21:10:25 GMT

To the Princess, it was an enigma why anyone would smoke, yet the answer seems simple enough when we station ourselves at that profound interface of nature and culture formed when people take something from the natural world and incorporate it into their bodies.

Three of the four elements are shared by all creatures, but fire was a gift to humans alone. Smoking cigarettes is as intimate as we can become with fire without immediate excruciation. Every smoker is an embodiment of Prometheus, stealing fire from the gods and bringing it back home. We smoke to capture the power of the sun, to pacify Hell, to identify with the primordial spark, to feed on the marrow of the volcano. It’s not the tobacco we’re after but the fire. When we smoke, we are performing a version of the fire dance, a ritual as ancient as lightning.

Does that mean that chain smokers are religious fanatics? You must admit there’s a similarity.

*HA*

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 16:24:27 GMT

so in our tropical-ish back yard where we have the plants and jasmine and pineapple growing with the tiki torches and the most important thing, the OFF candles....
we noticed a turtle digging a hole by our table.
jeanne and i knew it was a girl...dunno why tho
anywho
this morning, being the curious one i am, dug around in this hole that was perfectly covered back up grass and all and found....
turtle eggs
i saw three before i covered it back up

why our yard, i have no idea
but she has to have a damn good reason

so were baracading it off and figuring out what to expect because i dunno whats supposed to happen after they hatch.

crazy

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 12:16:06 GMT

WHERE'S MY GRANDMA'S COOKIES!!??

lack of a pinky...

Sun, 29 May 2005 19:44:14 GMT

not really tho, just cant bend it

i need to stop sticking my fingers in industrial strength fans at work...*laugh*
sometimes i wonder why i was promoted

its not over...oooh nooo...far from over
next saturday night, that fan will have my revenge

(just cause i dont have to fuck with the tables drip pan, hence where the fans are, until next saturday night)

Tue, 24 May 2005 22:47:43 GMT

its determined my next car, will be a bright ass yellow and orange truck...all countryfied and shit.
bastards...

the last unicorn
found
added to the collection

a warm smile, gotten

a cantelope, almost gone
...so i gotta pee
*you needed to know*

now, to study...there IS such thing as a stupid question, but apparently im the smart one!

no sense, no sense at all...7:00 simpsons time

..aaaaand shes out

Thu, 12 May 2005 23:27:03 GMT

want to learn something new...
some of you might know this...

look here:

what do you see...The Last Supper by Da Vinci of course...
but have you ever really looked...
"The Holy Grail" is said to be in this painting, but how many chalices are there?
13
look who is seated in the place of honor, the right hand of the Lord...
what do you see?

if you look hard enough my friends, you will see the long red hair, soft folded hands, and what is that....a hint of a bosom!?
its a woman

the woman that will crumble the Catholic Church... who is she you might wonder.... Mary Magadalene

Tue, 03 May 2005 12:01:07 GMT

MATT!!
HELLO!!

*hm*
not much

done with physical therapy, but i got a free Golds Gym membership
from the owner of Subway
hes trying to get me to help out in his store and run a new one when it opens
i laugh at him every time

but i am a manager where i work...after 6 weeks
its all good, theres really no problems with it, its fun
i dunno, i think im just destined to stay in some sort of resturant buisness...i love it

we all learned a valuable lesson 2 weeks ago
dont treat your lawn for pests if you have dogs
for during time...12 years for us...the poison, will slowly affect your dogs
brain to where it gets aggressive, then kill it by liver failure....
*so so sad*
SO LESSON OF THE YEAR
use eco friendly poison on your lawn....*blank look*
god

i miss my friends
on friday i go to a warehouse with Amy and play
i try to stay with the guitars, im not to great on drums
i can only do weezer songs good...
which old stoned people bobbing their heads to weezer and green day, its amusing
ill have to put pictures up
and im completely in charge of decoration and the reception of my friends wedding in August
birthday time for several girls, so theres a day for that too
im not in the wedding as of now, so i am perfectly fine staying where i am
strange girl...shes officialy catholic now, and has strapless dresses
we all love her

yes yes yes
i am alive
*puts out her arm*
you can hit me if you want

OMG, last thing, so we have a lot of plants and flowers around the house...
well little miss black thumb here has kept all of them alive!
ALL
i even have an iris in my wheel from my accident
it actually hold the plant in there quite well from the wheel being bent....*laugh*

WORK

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 12:41:30 GMT

HAHA...
yes

happens 2 times a day, most of which you only get one...
but this....this my dear
happens once a year...
just remember to turn the right burner on this time and save the brownies...
*sigh*
*laugh*

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:26:43 GMT

how can both of them be that sick....
how could you kill them both, and not even let me know??

really makes you wonder

...just wanna sleep

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 12:12:15 GMT

Its simply amazing when you look back...

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 21:40:12 GMT

I want to make you happy but I've fallen, I'm sorry. I thought my wings could hold me up with angels, not demons, you don't know how cool you are to find the ways to love me without shame.
If I run, I'll just become like all the faking lights, so let the thunders take me under and break my legs tonight.

Watch angels in the morning become a devil's afternoon. I will panic in the evening underneath the crashing moon. So fall in love while you can still hold your head up high, and pretend that you're alive again. It's friends that leave you here in the end, so hold your head up high, and pretend that you're alive again.

i can work...i have a job...*yea*
just wanted a simple one without responsability, but they tried to get me to be in a manager position...which i declined for now...
cant work that many hours just yet...but at least i have something to do now
*YEA*

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 02:35:01 GMT

This disgusting aberration of nature needs no motivation to devour helpless children in their beds, relishing the desparing moans, it chews kids up and spits their bones
~from a Calvin and Hobbs book...
what has the world come to??

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 15:34:09 GMT

think...
if you truley despise that person
maybe its because you had some sort of a real feeling with them
what ever it may be
people are different
some dont need to be around each other
some belong together
but dont hate what you fear
you might loose the most colorful things in life

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 17:23:33 GMT

Letting you guys know when i can...
the apartment situation has gotten extreamly frustrating...
were kinda stuck
we want to stay by TCC and work, but there are places in crawfordsville
houses...front and back yards
no annoying college kids
all that
but alas, cheryl has no source of income but disability and government assistance for now
never thought id have to do that...
so were kinda screwed, but im finding ways to make this work
we have to
im ok everyone, im doing what i can
and when it just gets to much to handle, im making another skirt, and being cheryl....
cleaning and cooking *laugh*
that and i have valium...which doesnt really help, it just calms my body down...so thats good
nothing i cant handle right now...
when its all over tho, then ill handle it *shrug*
guess thats just how i am i suppose
ryan, jeanne and madonna are taking care of me with anything and everything they can
as i am helping them with things they need...so were doing good
i want i want i want....
to not wake up in the middle of the night and have to painfully move to get medicine because of the pain
to not be on these pain pills every day
a source of income so i can get on a lease
to get this figured out, and done
i also want a carrot cake *laugh*
im just letting you guys know i havent dissapeared
i hope all is well with everyone else...
i want my lucky charms! *laugh*

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 16:21:25 GMT

Update
car wreck 1/5/05
saw chriopractor 2/2/05
2/8/05 Tyler turned 2 years old
ended up in the ER 2/10/05
2/11/05 mdeically withdrew out of class because of the injury, i shall be reimbursed and its not held against me
2/13/05 spent the evening with tyler...so cute, a pain in the ass sometimes, but my boy.
2/14/05 lovely dinner cooked for me, wonderful time as it could be. its not about gifts its about being there for the person you love, and that was given to me.
got fired 2/15/05 because of missed time from the doctors appointments
(yes, that is illegal, yes that CAN be a lawsuit, although its not in my plans)
2/16/05 decided this was to much to handle by myself, i now have an attorney
2/17/05 new chriopractor, got an MRI. when i compared the xrays from jan 5th to that day, and showed it to someone...just the look on their faces was enough
2/22/05 i find out if im on disability, and if and what kind of lawsuit there is on the first dr.
hopefully 2/28 we will be moving into a new apartment....which btw, is amazing.
its....incredible. what we wanted, and saving money too

theres your update
im doing ok, if its to much to handle, i have things i can do
i just hate the fact thta it hurts to bad to get out of bed in the morning, but i love the fact i have people who love me so much that are doing everything they can to make this work, and it is working, and it will, and when this is over...well when this is over, it will hiopefully be worth the stress its put me thru.
the only thing i hate, this wasnt my fault, and it just keeps getting worse....soon enough tho...soon enough

happy birthday

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 12:09:53 GMT

happy birthday to you my love
even tho i cant be with you on this day, know that im thinking of you every second
of every day....not just today

make your mother proud

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 14:49:01 GMT

*ponders*

there must be a reason why you cant...